Please :) Be

I wrote a letter in 1994,

reread and edited it a time or three, gave it a cool, I still feel this way thumb’s up and tucked it back where it belongs
(big file cabinet, top drawer, ya can’t miss it)

I created a list, a quite impressive list, of songs I want played

& I’ve made it known, time after time again, to those who patiently listen …

Memorial service/bbq.
Celebration.
Laughter and tears and drinks and dancing, a day filled with family, friends, memories and FUN.

Not too long ago, I purchased a book

where all my bits and pieces and notes and stuff will be tidily gathered
(as soon as I get my act together to tidily gather)

& I have this blog, where I oftentimes reveal my innermost thinking-s,
in paragraphs,

For Real. For Sure.

in poems,

Dancing With Jesus

in rambles

♥ there ♥

and glee

& before you fine peeps who visit these words start wondering
WHAT’S UP WITH JACKI ??!?? IS SHE TRYING TO TELL US SOMETHING ??!!?? OHMYGOSH !! WHAT ??

shhhh, calm that vibe, please, I’m simply preparing
’cause, practically speaking, one day, I will exit this life.
It could be tomorrow, it might be a thousand tomorrows, but yep, it’s definitely going to happen.
And I need those I love most to know, I’m ok with that fact,
way ok.

When Gramma left, in 1990,

If I Had Only Known

Mom, in 2007

Mom’s

and Auntie, in 2015

Jo Jo

I seriously could not imagine life without,
grief held tight, it was hard for me to let them go.
But through walking,

writing,

Without

sign after sign after wonderful sign,

& conversations with my friend, I slow and steadily found my way to better
and I guess, what I’m trying to accomplish with today’s thoughts, is a gentler path to better.
I’m setting things up for the inevitable and I want YOU to be ok when inevitable arrives.
Because I am 100% positivity positive !! absolutely certain !! home to Jesus, I’ll return
& confident in my confidence I need you to live,
to love,
to be.

Please 🙂 be.

♥

‘Cause Jesus Told Me So