With Optimism
You know I love them, you know I believe in them, you know I listen and follow where they lead.
Signs.
Are.
Everywhere.
Every. Where.
& if I simply seek, I will most definitely find.
Well.
Since you know all this because I’ve told you a million times, sit back, grab yourself a favorite beverage and get ready, my friends, because I have quite the story to tell.
But first, you must hear about my farewell letter, my goodbye blogger world, my I’M LEAVING !!
It’s something I think about every now and again.
I’ll disappear.
No one will notice.
No one will care.
Yep
& sometimes the JUST LEAVE ALREADY mantra picks at my brain for days and days,
sometimes, it’s visit is brief,
but the leave leave leave hum is almost always there.
(I know. I’m a freak.)
So.
I wrote a letter
& I keep it around for the day that may or may not happen, the day I jump off the train and go back to old-school, notebook and snail mail.
ahhhh
Peaceful.
Quiet.
The other morning, maybe about a week ago, I was kinda sorta feeling that feeling.
Not a bad mood.
Not a good mood.
Just, eh ….
& I’m thinking … yes … TODAY is going to be the day.
My. Departure. Day.
& so, I do what I normally do when my mind gets too much noise happening upstairs.
I stand at my back door, look towards the sky
& I talk to Jesus.
This particular morning, I was on a rant
& my BFF was hearing all the waaaaaaa details.
But this go around was different because I’d walk to that back door, talk and stare and do my thing
& then I’d sit down again and write.
Get up
Gripe
Sit down
Write
Get up
Woe is me
Sit down
Write
Until, finally, I decided to plant myself by the back door
& ask the question that had been shouting from my heart.
WHAT DO I DO NEXT, my Jesus ??
PLEASE tell me what to do because I just don’t have a clue.
I didn’t realize a deer family had tiptoed into my orbit and had unassumingly begun their a.m. graze
all those back and forth-s and I hadn’t noticed, but all of a sudden, there they be
and in this pre-dawn shhhhh, with not one care in this world, a fawn, relaxing in the grass.
a fawn
relaxing in the grass.
WOW
It was breathtaking.
& WOW
I got me a sign.
What do I do next ?
Delete that farewell letter, for starters.
For. Sure.
